How do you navigate through life?
When I was planning my life out as a child I didn’t expect to be where I am now. Now I’m sitting here wondering if life’s really worth living: almost 24, living at home, no man, no job. Is it really worth it? I spend my days doing observations at schools that probably won’t hire me. I’m in graduate school partially because I want to become a music educator and partially because I have nothing better to do.
When I graduated in 2009, with no job offers, I applied to grad school because I didn’t want to just sit around. It was a way for me to feel worth something while I got myself together. 3 years later, nothing has come out of it.
My parents are disappointed in me. They don’t have to tell me for me to know it’s true. You think you do everything right and you still end up wrong.
My fear is to graduate next year and still have no job, no man, and no place to call my own. I feel like I’m in this never ending black hole and the only way to get out of it is…well…you know…
I seem fine on the outside but I’m dying on the inside. What is wrong with me?
I’m slowly falling back into my dark place. Where is this good God? My faith is dying out.
Tell me what’s it all for?